I'd like to know what it is inside us that self deprecates. hate, bitterness, jealousy, anger, insecurity, self-doubt, etc. what is the root of all these? Who told us that we weren't allowed to be happy with who we are? Who pointed out all our flaws and laughed at us and told us to stare at them as if it was a car wreck on the side of the highway you can't take your eyes off of.
I like being happy. I can't relate to people who bathe in their dislike of themselves. I'm learning to like who I am. Because God made us, he said 'it was good' and good for Him is better than good for me.
I like having confidence, although it leaves me at times. God makes us, he knows every hair on our heads. He holds me when I need holding. He has promised us what we cannot give ourselves, He has given us freedom from the world different than any other 'god' can offer and we still cry when we get stressed. We still sin in our anger because we are too ashamed to admit that we are really angry at ourselves, not those that our sin is directed toward.
I'm not sure I understand the human nature.
I taught a lesson on restoration last week. I didn't realize how hard of a lesson it was for people, because I didn't realize I was really teaching a lesson on how our human nature is idiotic. You see, restoration comes from brokenness, and everyone can relate to that. people don't like hearing a lesson on restoration because we don't want to be restored. We _need_ to, but we don't want to.
I'm not sure I understand the human nature.
We bask in our brokenness. We pity ourselves and we self-deprecate instead of looking toward Heaven and finding grace and joy in the Lord who promises it to us. Are we denying the covenant God made to us?
That might be just it.
What if we focused on praising God rather than feeling jealousy and anger within ourselves?
Not just for what He's done, but for who He is.
"We slowly chip away at each other's protective coatings until one day we wake up and notice we are naked and people are pointing...Then just as I lean in to take a bite, to suck with all my might at the marrow, to breathe in with as much ferocity as I can muster, I see your eyes and hear your whispers."
"Think back. Try hard to recall what praise in its undiluted purity felt like. When you would dance with your arms fully extended rather than elbows bent, folded closely to your person in such a guarded fashion...What if this kind of praise freely leaked from us in delightful response to God?"
David Crowder, Praise Habit
my life is a wandering. a journey. a rollercoaster. a finding of the Needle upon which this all spins. let's just say i have a Secret to tell you.
4.09.2008
child, I love you
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1 comment:
whoooaaamygosh.
So...have i ever told you how much i love that we encourage eachother through our blogs? because i do..it seriously makes my day sometimes..a lot of times actually.
Thank you.
and Thank YOU!
I'm actually reading praise habit right now..it's good stuff.
<3
I love you, and humans are stupid..thank God we lose this stupidity after we die....
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