oh, watershed

i don't know what you are feeling, but i hope you figure it out for yourself and not for other people.

what will come of this i don't know, but i need to get this straight within myself. i'm pretty sick of the way i've been thinking lately. i overanalyze things because
a. i am a girl, and it is one of our God given gifts (or curses, whichever way you want to look at it)
b. it's just my nature. no one else around me does it so i feel it is my duty when others are completely under analyzing things. people are stupid therefore i am not. (i've analyzed this to come to such a conclusion, let me know if i need to elaborate)

again, i'm sick of the way i'm thinking. God says that He gives us treasure and we are vessels that hold this. God says that he will bring our dead bones to life and our dead spirits to breathing when we accept his covenant.

I've accepted his covenant, so what am I doing here in this rut again?
Oh Lord.
I'm ready.
Go.

Have I forgotten about my past?
No way.
Have I come to peace with it?
Pretty much.
Do I believe there's a treasure inside me building larger and larger?
With all my heart.
Do I put trust in a God that knows what's best for me when all I see is what's good for me?
haha. For some reason, yes.


I don't know where, I don't know how, I don't know why.
But your love can make these things better.


Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods?
Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself;
the LORD will hear when I call to him.
In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the LORD.
Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD.
You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.
I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone, O LORD,
make me dwell in safety.

Sometimes David says it better.