I'll be your hope I'll be your love
be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
a new beginning
a reason for living
a deeper meaning

and when the stars are shining
brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
then make you want to cry
the tears of joy for all the
pleasure in the certainty
that we're surrounded by the
comfort and protection of the highest powers
in lonely hours
the tears devour you.


oh, savage garden. thank you for the words.

i'm laughing and i'm crying and i'm not sure what my stomach feels like. it's a mix of butterflies and rosemary roasted chicken and cheesy potatoes and rolls and chocolate covered strawberries and mint chocolate chip cookies and love and white chocolate truffles and humbleness and hope and faith and life. all inside my stomach.
i'm pretty full.
i might upchuck.
you're already a voice inside my head. Lord i keep giving my heart to others and Lord you are the only one who deserves it. tears of joy? no...those weren't tears of joy. but they were good tears. they needed me and they've missed me.

dear future husband,
life's good here while i'm waiting for you. i'm learning. God is breaking and mending and breaking my heart. i hope by the time i know who you are that i'm ready for you. i want to give you nothing less than what you deserve. i want to hear the words you aren't saying and comfort you. i want to hold you in my arms and love you like you've never been loved.
all that to say this: i'm preparing my heart for you. i am giving up the things of this world to save a piece of my heart for you. you were never real to me until tonight. i heard you through the voice of a man of God. i heard you through explosions in the sky. i heard you through laughter. i heard you through tears. i saw you through the flash of a camera that will allow me to remember this night forever.
by the way, i'm not saying this while listening to some mellow Christian emo song. i'm listening to blink 182: all the small things.
our life together is going to be great.
i can live with that hope.
in the meantime, i'll be running the race...watching the sunset...laughing...catching some rays...playing music...embracing friendships so strong...did i mention laughing? i'll be doing a lot of that. i can't believe that you will be able to deal with my laughing. i can't live without it.
i'll see you soon.
-laura mae


The current is strong, my arms are weak
But you are the branch within my reach.